Wednesday, December 28, 2005

greendragon

what is the cause-this collection
of emotions-this impression of
someone else's song-what is the
cause-this touch of another love
upon my sweaty brow-this distant
compaction-this lesson learned-
this lonely state-what is the cause

i'm waiting with my sword
but it circles around and
laughs encircling laughs

lone

come see the blue



it is truth what are you

come taste the edge of mind



it is reason what are you

come to me and know love



it is real

what are you

lone

where are you
i've been waiting, now
sitting around where
are you

my time is slipping
slipping into where
are you slipping
come back to me
come to me i am where
you should be
where
are you

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

this is a test


and we're having fun

and now we're italicized

sweet dreams

eyes closing my dream begins or does it
yes it does and i close my eyes hoping
hoping that tonight it will be of you

Sunday, December 25, 2005

the eve of generosity

what joy! when truth shows and generous
generous is the day, this joyous day
as the speed rests, the work stills
alive is joy because generous is upon us!
generous love and show the truth
leave everything behind today and show
show the truth

no package contains love no bow
shines on its outer edges no paper
surrounds its body but still love
is a gift on this holiday a gift that
fills every well-wrapped package

what joy! i am perfectly filled
and i haven't opened a single thing

for your journey

take this thought that i fill with every ounce
of love and devotion, of care and intention,
of intensity and affection, of passion and peace,
take this thought that i fill with every second
of time that i miss, of time that i remember
of time that i dream, of time that i still have,
take this thought and let it linger
let it stand alone against the winds
watch as it fights--watch as it fights
for this thought will never leave your side
take this thought, and know you are safe
you are strong
you are loved

what i see when i close my eyes

could you even glimpse the beautiful
i asked mad rabbit memory
mad rabbit memory who only took from me
mad rabbit memory that despised one
i asked mad rabbit memory why he took
from me the beautiful and why he played
with my only memory of the lips of the
beautiful the horrible mad rabbit memory
who comes and goes just in time
for the beautiful to flash in and out of my thoughts
and mad rabbit memory
races around again and again
but he is too fast and he only catches
a glimpse of the beautiful
but a glimpse nonetheless

Friday, December 23, 2005

with a kiss

so soft and so soft as in a dream
and i kiss so soft on the cheek
as if on the cheek is in a dream
and so soft is the kiss so soft
i don't wake the beautiful
the beautiful i kiss to wake
not to wake the beautiful
but to wake my own, my being
and so soft, so soft as in a dream
i wake

Oh Beautiful

truth is the only sound

when i am alone with the world

and the beautiful. the beautiful.

when the world trusts me, when the world smiles

i am so. i am trusted. oh when i have the world

i am so lucky to have the beautiful. the beautiful.

i love this world because when we are alone

truth is the only sound

Thursday, December 22, 2005

natural limits

i am so old and aging still
it's some sort of process they think
a natural decay or natural growth
something natural i guess
but they really don't know anything yet

so party on!

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

compound fracture

flapping in the wind, it stings
and i'm open, so open, for the world to see
you scrutinize, you laugh and think you know
but i am not as injured as you think
i may be flapping in the wind
but i choose my destiny

with or without you, world

lostibilities

curiosity killed the cat

but at least
he knew

optimism

you all should know that good things do happen
and when you should know that happens things
often are good when you know what you should do
but all good things should happen when they
are things you should know

but only if they're good

Sunday, December 18, 2005

to the end

and there it goes
floating off into the wind
the last of my hope
the last of any wish
i might have dreamed
but now i'm left
empty

and i am left
now
alone

Sunday, December 11, 2005

only

i only want to talk to you
i only want to fix this
i only have myself to give
i hope that is enough

because i want only you
for the rest of my only life
to be my only one

only together
will we be only no more

Saturday, December 10, 2005

letter

i am so hopeful right now
all i want is for this letter
to make my world
whole again

Thursday, December 01, 2005

december

it's so cold without you love

i have layers and layers and layers
you'll see no tears from these eyes
but i convulse and cold you watch
i fight shivers amid flaming realities

an evil sort of inescapable cold
that sneaks into my thoughts
controls my body with shakes and voodoo
and never relents the chilling reminders

i don't seek warmth
only the weak died from fear
i seek courage
because so many of the strong
never lived

and i refuse to freeze with you watching